Infinite and Beyond

Originalmente postada em 26/06/2006

One of the most difficult things about life, when you try to analyze it, is to put it into perspective and organize your thoughts about it. When you think about it, you seem to have clear view of your beliefs and personal dogmas! Once you start writing about it, you realize that life itself might be far more simple than the paths to explain it.

The mind is a powerful tool inside of us. It dictates much more than the way we function, it is simply one of the ways and obstacles of our personal evolution. Constantly we juggle with ways to make It understand Him, for example. Occasionally we put ourselves in the horrific situation of trying to make sense of our instincts, as well. Why do we not just leave then be the way they are? Why do we have to dissect, distort, stretch, magnify and finally comprehend what sometimes does not need to be understood?

Well, I am certainly one of those people who do that all the time. More than that, even when I am feeling that I am simple and letting things happen simply because they need to happen, I know that silence is my mind trying to make sense of all the confusion it appears to be going on. Hm, but that is my mind. It is the way it is… And that is the great beauty of learning to NOT make sense of things that do not need to be understood. My mind is that way, so I will respect it and learn my way through and around it… Ignoring sometimes, using it other times.

To better organize my thoughts and try to make sense of what should not have sense at all, here is a list of the things that I absolutely believe in life:

- Life is eternal
- Everything is made of the same “material”, be it a rock, a newspaper or a baby
- That “material” carries a conscience and this conscience carries information
- This information is being transferred since the Universe was created
- The age of Universe is irrelevant
- The actual definition of infinite is irrelevant
- The past does not exist because it is already gone, therefore not part of what is fact. The future has not happened yet and the same way nonexistent since is not fact as well. The present is so absurdly fast that cannot be measured, cannot be contained, cannot be felt. Time does not exist since it cannot be measured.
- If time cannot be cannot be measured, infinite cannot be measured, proving that its length is irrelevant.
- If present is not measurable, it is infinite.
- If present is infinite we are eternal.
- Basically what we have in life is a moment. A single instant almost graspable that we describe as present. Once you start to understand how difficult it is to measure it, we start to get confused because in reality it seems that we are not living at all.

It all starts with this ideal preconception we have about what life is. Some people believe in only one life, some in Heaven, some believe in reincarnation and some in eternal life. Some people simply do not believe. And that is the way things should be. Each of us having a way to see life. It does not change what is true and what is not. It does not change what is a fact and what is interpretation. Because in the end, facts do not exist. Only what we see do, and what we see will always be interpretation.

If I could point the single thing that defines life for me, it would be our vision. Yes, our ability to see or not see things. We all know that there is no such thing as a person being equal to another. Probably even clones have differences since they will have different environments to change them through life. So, if we have differences it will mean, physically that we are not able to see the exact same thing that any other person does. We cannot see the same red that the friend beside us does. We cannot see a dog chasing bones as any other person. We see differently than blind, who see with other senses. Because we are indeed different.
What is fact then? Did it ever exist? How can we know that a table is indeed a table? That Napoleon lost the war against the British, that the man really touched the moon floor. Who knows? Those are only interpretations we created for something that might or might not have happened. They say that the winners write History, and it is really true. Or not. How can we verify that? How can we be sure that our sources are correct? We cannot!

So we trust. We trust our history books, we trust our parents, our friends. We simply trust that what we learn is The Truth.
What about what we feel? Do we trust it? Do we ever trust our feelings the way we trust history books? Are they more or less trustworthy? What is truth, anyway? In our own systematic world it seems to be Common knowledge, doesn’t it? The version that was better accepted… Hm, the winner’s version.
But what if we started realizing that, in fact, our feelings are more part of the truth than all the information we have. Even our feelings which are deeply influenced by this enormous amount of information we receive every day. (Note that I use the world information and not knowledge. The first is simply what is there to be used and the second is what we do with that when we combined with other information and create something that is greater than the sum of both).

When we close our eyes and forget where we are, we feel. When we feel and do not explain what is there… Then we try a bit of what Truth is. Then we experience a bit of what infinite is. Then we start understanding without analyzing it. That is when we truly find out that we did not learn anything, we remembered.
Life is full of this moments… that we forget. We forget to taste them, we forget to live them. Because we think that what we believe is a fact is more important than what we feel is the Truth. We are so insecure we keep looking for a confirmation that is right there, inside of is.

Each one of us has one unique nature and truth. One essence and mind. Each of us is formed by an enormous number of tiny us, who have in them information as well. Better information than the ones we read in books or find anywhere else. Because this story, a confusion of information, is US, is who we are and what we are. We have in us all the knowledge needed to evolve. And we often do not use it. We often ignore it. Pass is as confusion of a crazy mind. But deep down we always know what is true and what is not, don’t we? When we let the silence walk in and we let the sounds of our self sing. That is when we start remembering and stop learning. That is when we start living.